Poem - Yet You Are The One To Break It

don't stare at me...

don't come in my direction...

you wrap around my heart and squeeze it until it pops

though i am not close to you, you are always around me

taunting me

haunting me

but most of all

hurting me

because you are everywhere

you step onto the ground before me and attempt to make me fall

                                       and you try to trip me because of a fall

                                                         to trip me on guilt

                                                                           a guilt i should not possess

there you go,

you've gotten your revenge

i didnt know who you were and hurt you by accidnent

                                   but you hurt me on purpose

you've scarred me with out a single touch

and now you've carved your name into veins as proof that you were here

  its set in stone

and set in blood

                        or soon to be

                                            once you finally kill me

because i know what you say

      and i know what you have said before

      and i know your name

                                       they all hurt to hear

                                       there are things that remind me of you

                                                              

i never loved you and you never loved me,

                    you never had my heart, never anywhere close

               yet you are the one to break it

anytime i hear of you, another piece falls off

when i see your name, or anything near it, my stomach turns

did you know i was hurt? well, that doesn't matter

                               and well, you wouldn't care anyhow

                               and well, you got what you wanted

i hate to sleep

i hate it because of you

             because of you i wake up feeling sickened

             because you rear your head into my dreams

             because you can turn a perfect day into a nightmare

because of you i have to hold back my tears

because of you i realized a heart once mended has had the seams ripped

                                                                                                 ripped again

a dead soul resurrected is slowly being laid to rest again

by you singing a lullabye that could soothe only the hard of hearing

a song that weakens me

                                   because i was strong until you

i heard you were gone for good...

he told me and he's happy he is free...

then i realized 

that now i was the one trapped

when i looked up and saw your name

when i looked over and saw your name

                                                         and i saw you everywhere

i never loved you and you never loved me,

                    you never had my heart, never anywhere close

               yet you are the one to break it

anytime i hear of you, another piece falls off

when i see your name, or anything near it, my stomach turns

did you know i was hurt? well, that doesn't matter

                               and well, you wouldn't care anyhow

                               and well, you got what you wanted

Songs Left Unexplained #4 - Scared to Death

a newer song i have been thinking about lately

it's called "scared to death" by the band HIM off of thier new albun Screamworks

the entire album is beautiful, i definately recomend it :)

In the biblical sense and sensibility
let me know you
I'll kiss that smile off your face
just say when


I'm not afraid to say 'I love you'
any more than I used to be, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love


All these people blast from hell
ice break is infernal
from a heart so black and blue
only for you


(just say when, again)


I'm not afraid to say 'I love you'
any more than I used to be, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love
with you


I'm not afraid to say 'I love you'
any more than I used to be, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love


I'm not afraid to admit I adore you
any more than I was before, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love
with you


with you...


scared to death...


I'm scared to death..


And you're sweet like poison...




now with my input...


In the biblical sense and sensibility
let me know you
I'll kiss that smile off your face
just say when
usually the phrase "i'll kiss that smile off your face" wouldnt mean anything good, but i think about it in a different way.  to me, i think of it as just kissing them passionately, because most people dont always smile when they kiss that way. "in the biblical sense and sensibility let me know you" means, since alot of people say the Bible is the truth, that he wants to you in the truest way. and since God is the most caring and loving person then in sensibility he may mean he wants to be sweet to them 


I'm not afraid to say 'I love you'
any more than I used to be, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love
first two lines -i was terrified to tell nick i loved him for the first time...honestly i was..it was scary, just that fear that he may not feel the same or wont say it back or wouldnt talk to me again...i was scared. but it's a now or never moment..if i hadnt said it then i may have never gotten the chance again and would have regretted it so i did it. "i am scared to death to fall in love" because it is scary. i am very much in love, but im always still falling in love with him. i never stop falling, and its still scary but a good scary. its okay to be scared sometimes. its one of those scary's that are like "wow...this great thing is happening to..me?" realizations without the worry that it wont be said back. true love is a truely beautiful thing


All these people blast from hell
ice break is infernal
from a heart so black and blue
only for you
"all these people blast from hell" would represent all of the people who have ever hurt me, im not the most well liked person so i have been made fun of and called names alot through my life but "from a heart so black and blue, only for you" just shows that he is the only one who has the power to heal my heart and make me forget my problems and hurts


(just say when, again)


(chorus x2)

 I'm not afraid to admit I adore you
any more than I was before, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love
with you


with you...


scared to death...


I'm scared to death..


And you're sweet like poison...

Photography - Tehya With Tea

Photography - Another Nice Day in April

i think the first one is quite lovely :)

second was nick's idea, i like it alot ^_^

i love the color of the clouds and the way the trees contrast ♥

Photography - Nicko :)

he let me take pictures of him :)

Photography - Sunsetting

i was driving to downtown and took this on the way

(also, unedited)

Pastel Drawing - In The Rain

Photography - Lunch With Mami