Valentines day #OOTD

i spent valentines day alone, but it ain't no thang :) ordered nicko a pizza to his house, had to show him some love even though the weather didnt want us too :) you know how it is ~

i'm not a girl...i'm nothing. [long post]

this is something that i've really been holding on for too long. this post will be lengthy, because i'm long winded, and because i know people would be asking "why?" if i made it short.

as the title says, i am not a girl.

but, i am also not a boy.

i don't feel like i belong in either gender category, maybe somewhere in between.

which has caused a huge identity crisis for me throughout my life.

i am not cisgender, but i don't like to refer to it as transgender, 

as there would be know way for me to ever transition...

really, i am, and have always kind of been there.

i am gender neutral.

it took me a very long time to figure out what to call it.

Mini-Photoshoot

went to a car meet with Nick today and he had his DSLR so he took some pretty bad-ass photos of me :D i feel awesome in these~

Making my own clip-in extensions [[+video]]

 i think they turned out pretty cute :) i'd been wanting purple extensions for a while now and bought them on a whim. they werent clip-ins, so i bought clips and made them clip-ins myself :D i tried to record the whole process, but it effed up -_- but i got one of the second ones recorded! and i talked about what i did. i hope you guys like it :D here's some pictures :3

this is my new signature pose :)

Meshuggah! [[pictures]]

Jens Kidman

if you couldnt tell, i had a fucking BLAST!!!

and thats my new friend Hannah :) she's rad

NY-Day2

today was the shopping day...though there will be another the day after tomaro. tis the very end of christmas eve!! i just got home from a family party...i got to try "Puerto Rican Egg Nog" a.k.a coquita...kinda like a Pina Colada but really thick like egg nog. basically it was in a cup and he said "try it" so i did and i was all O_o... today i wore this old sweater i got in 09,  i forgot i had it til i was doing laundry and found it xD the scarf i got at a consignment shop last year i think. or 2 years ago? idk xD but i think i looked ok :)
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my cousin Angel

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i got a couple of things at the dollar store, earbuds, hair balls, mini highlighters xD and i got a cool paper umbrella :) like the ones in asia! its gorgeous and blue :) i'll take pics when i get back to Ohio. and i finally got new combat boots! long overdue for that. jeez. haha surprisingly i havent bought any makeup yet..but there's a cool hair store with really nice wigs that i'm looking to stop by... and there's a bubble tea place just up the street!! gotta stop there too :)

i think we're going to the bronx tomorrow to see Tio Junior? maybeeee..

here's some pics of me and tehya with my hair balls i bought :)

they came in pairs so i wore a purple one and she did too

NY-Day1

just arrived in brooklyn about an hour ago~

we visited my cousin Angel & his lady first to get the keys to Abuelas apt

she still has all those pretty decorations...

even at night it's still so nice

~

the car ride was about 10 hours,

no one really talked to me through the whole thing

i was really bored...and sick

[[iPad pics]]

i was playing with my dad's iPad and got motion sickness :(

i've been getting it so frequently now-a-days
we had subway for lunch :)
my dad knows how to make the best sandwhiches
i get lost in all the stuff you can put on it and end up with a crappy sub xD

when i got to NY, (brooklyn btw)

i had the best dinner

chicken wing soup & rice

i had 2 servings and a sprite...

i forgot how it felt to be this full...

and of good homemade food

maybe i didn't want to come because i know how much its gonna make me miss home...

i havent even been here long and i already don't want to leave...

and i already opened my xmas gifts from Papi,

get ready to see me make some hideous faces xD

this was @ my house in Ohio

i looked so cute today.

this is my new favorite outfit ♥

black cardigan - Studio Works 

striped tank - wet seal

dark blue jeans - ZanaDi

Musical knee highs - DEB

Legwarmers - Wet Seal

i made a dress out of danger tape.

here is my project for my 3D class collegesux. but, i've had fun wit this. now...pictures :)

thoughts?

i was feeling green today :3

[[zombie hand clips | green shirt | green lip ring]]

see anything new?

you can see my new cut a little better,

and my orange is finally blonde now :D

and i got my coontails back in :)

yes, real ones...not clip ins!

i cut my hair, and i love it. ♥

my rainbow hair!

i got extensions...

i have mixed feelings about them. :x

cupcake tube top [[+about my hair]]

another diy fix for an old shirt :) now its the cutest tank top ever :D

i've cut off the top, tied the sides and the back

i love it ^_^ ♥

now, for the hair~

it's hard to see in that picture,

but my hair is in buns!

it's all curly because i did it with my natural hair,

but i've done the same style with my hair straight

i woke up with this hair style 2 days ago,

i think i may have done it when i was delusional in the middle of the night, cuz i don't remember doing it, but it was cute :D

i like it better straight :)

it's a little more "me"

purple makeup :) i felt pretty

how i did it, was i sectioned off the top layers of my hair halfway up,

then twisted the long bottom layer and wrapped it around the top layer to make a little pony tail,

then put a hair band around that

maybe i'll do a video 

idk ^_^

from t-shirt to halter top

it was a t-shirt, but it's been too big for 4+ years
so i cut it up into a halter :) i needed a new one~
and now it's my favorite shirt ^_^

perfect for summer :D

[[feathers & fishnets]]