✎ ℝｅａｌｉｔｙℂｈｅｃｋ ✔ - Goodbye, Miss Bridgett ['74-2014]

i wore this to a "funeral" ...i really did.

and if you knew who the funeral was for, you wouldnt be at all surprised.

no one was surprised when they saw me, because they know me

"Berry, you had to make it metal." says Amber (alix's sister)...i love that reaction haha :)

today, i said my last goodbye to one of the most amazing women i've ever known, 

and it was hard for me, but i'm okay.

Rest In Paradise, Miss Bridgette

✎ ℝｅａｌｉｔｙℂｈｅｃｋ ✔ - blastbeating heart.

 i've always had a bit of an anxiety problem,

but this year it's been worsening rapidly enough to make me worried 

i've always been someone who could control those types of things in public,

my awkwardness, anxious impulses, freak-outs and even mild panic attacks,

but now it's like the littlest things are making me act...out of character.

it's like everything about something is trying to attack me.

i find myself freaking out at home or work for what seems like no reason,

and i can't even control it now 

✎ ℝｅａｌｉｔｙℂｈｅｃｋ ✔ - another good soul gone..

i've now lost two important people in my life in this year alone. its starting to feel surreal, and my emotions don't know what to do with themselves, with me, with anyone, or anything else. i'm used to loss, and i know its a bad thing to say, but its the truth. when i was a kid, alot of my friends were elderly people, and i was used  to them passing away. but i was still sad.