Saturday, October 30, 2010

Ten Days post - Day 9

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Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself that most people don't know.
Day Three: Eight things you couldn't live without.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you could change or you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot to you
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons
Day Nine: Two words that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

1. loving
2. lonely

Friday, October 29, 2010

Ten Days post - Day 8

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Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself that most people don't know.
Day Three: Eight things you couldn't live without.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you could change or you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot to you
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two words that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.


1. the love of art and music
2. i have a thing for tongues..
3. innocence

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Ten Days post - Day 7

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Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself that most people don't know.
Day Three: Eight things you couldn't live without.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you could change or you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot to you
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons
Day Nine: Two words that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

1. cockyness
2. pushy...
3. satanist @_@ sorry if thats shallow but i cant do it
4. straight up annoying

Poem - I Remember A Time

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i remember a time when i was strong
when the nights were short and the days were long
friends were loyal and sisters were true
a time long before i met you.

i remember a time when i was young
singing to myself with a guitar, fully strung
ballet was my life and everyone always shared,
but i still never had a friend that cared.

i remember a time when i was okay
when i slept in the woods and the sky was gray
no one was with me but one little cat
i was happy, but no one could understand that..


i remember a time when i was depressed
someone broke my heart and ripped it out of my chest
i felt like a fool for believeing every lie
and did something that made me just want to die . . .


i remember a time when i was in hiding
in my room, in the house where i was residing
i was hurt so much, i just wanted to be alone
by choice, i didnt even use the house phone



now,
i remember a time when i fell in love
for real this time, like i'd always dreamed of
real love, and now for my heart to mend
i think i've found something that will never end*

Poem - MiMi

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figure eights around my feet
giggle every time i weep
every time my heart is sore
the blue mouse crawls across the floor
it could be pam or 10pm
she comes around every now and then
blue just like a cartoon tear
soft little whispers in my ear
to cheer me up, she'll give a try
i know she hates to see me cry
her pink nose has never been put to shame
her ears wont accept any other name
besides the one i gave her the first time she'd seen me
yes, i'm friends with a blue mouse, that i love, named MiMi

Poem - Come Over

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i miss you and i want you here with me
you dont know how bad i long to see you every day
i wish i could see
i wish we could hug

i hear your voice, but you're not here

as i drink from my coffee mug
the wolf on the side reminds me of you
whenever someone knocks at the door,
i always peak just to see if it's you
i always hope it is . . .
and whenever my phone rings,
i jump for joy to hear you speak

i still blush when you say "i love you"

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Ten Days post - Day 6

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Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself that most people don't know.
Day Three: Eight things you couldn't live without.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you could change or you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot to you
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons
Day Nine: Two words that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.


1. Nick Mutters - my fiance...i love him more than anything, always have been there for me since the beginning. i cant explain how much he means to me. he's helped me out and made me happy. i care about him more than i have ever cared about anyone else. i admire him and i adore him
2. Papi - my father...i love him so much. always have been there for me no matter how far away and always cared about me.
3. Bella - you're like my little sister and i love you. you remind me of a younger version of myself and you have a special place in my heart. you're always here to cheer me up when i'm down and keep me company when i'm lonely. i'm always here for you too. i want people to accept you and i want the same for myself, but at least we accept eachother...i hope that's okay for now :)
4. Grandma - we share a first name...i've lived with you and you were the first person to see me in my entire life. in a way you've been like a mother to me. you're the perfect grandma. i really hope and pray you will be alive to see me get married and that my children will meet you <3 i really do
5. MiMi - i'll be completely honest...this is my imaginary pet mouse :/ when i'm sad she runs figure 8's around my feet and crawls all over me trying to make me feel better. it's a person to me...

Get Well Soon Rabbito!

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made this card for rabbito who is sick with food poisoning!
get well soon i miss your blogging already :D
♥ you rabbi-chan ^_^

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Ten Days post - Day 5

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Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself that most people don't know.
Day Three: Eight things you couldn't live without.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you could change or you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot to you
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons
Day Nine: Two words that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.


1. i wish i would have came over that day she was there.
2. i wish i had never told him not to kill her.
3. i wish i could change what you did that day..
4. i wish you would've never not cared.
5. i wish i could change that my parents aren't together.
6. i wish you had never told me what happened...but i'm glad you did anyway..

Songs Left Unexplained #10: Invincible

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this song means alot to me. alot of people underestimate this band but they have some real emotion in thier songs and i love them soo much <3
I memorized all the words for you
But if you only knew how much that’s just not like me
I wait up late every night just to hear your voice
But you don’t know that’s nothing like me

You know I wonder have you already figured out
All these things that I try to hide
All this time I’ve been hoping you don’t find out how
All these thing that I hide on the inside

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me

I want to make sure everything is perfect for you
If you only knew that that’s not like me to follow through
Maybe even give up on these dead end dreams just to be with you
But you don’t know that’s nothing like me

[chorus]
Now I’m waking up
I’ve finally had enough of this wreck of a life
How I never thought I’d survive
Now I’m taking back all I gave up for that
Leave my pain behind
Wash these stains from my life

Just when I thought all was lost
You came and made it all okay

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me
[2x]
I memorized all the words for you
If you only knew how much that’s just not like me


now for my meaning...


I memorized all the words for you
But if you only knew how much that’s just not like me
i dont know if i ever told him this, but i memorized 2 songs by Bring Me The Horizon, simply because it was his favorite band. this was when i first met him, and he knew i wasnt into screamo, its just not like me.
I wait up late every night just to hear your voice
But you don’t know that’s nothing like me
these 2 lines make me remember when i went to new york and he called me by accident and said that we didnt have a phone call relationship, but then he ended up calling me back and we've talked almost every day since. it wasnt like him.
You know I wonder have you already figured out
All these things that I try to hide
i wondered if he had figured out, just how much i really loved him even that early.
All this time I’ve been hoping you don’t find out how
All these thing that I hide on the inside
at the same time i didnt want him to find out how much i loved him because i didnt want him to freak out. and other problems and depression i didnt want him to know about for the fear that he would let me go..

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
honestly, i didnt have alot of relationship experience...or at least not alot of good ones. nicko treats me better than anyone, which made me happy but at the same time i didnt know how to take it because it never really happened before. and i thought i knew what love was before, but when i fell in love with nick...this was real love, i felt like i had never loved anyone else before. i have "loved" people, but this is my first time being IN love with someone.
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me
he made me into a softy lol honestly, i was one of those girls who was always sweet, but was never as sweet as she could have been and always play fought with her boyfriends and beat them up...lol XD i was invincible, i could do whatever i wanted, but now i want to do what he wants...i had so much respect for him that punching was now irrellevant and all i wanted was hugs.

I want to make sure everything is perfect for you
If you only knew that that’s not like me to follow through
i wanted to be perfect for him, and usually i would give up on people but not him. i didnt feel like i was perfect because he did have an ex that he was serious with, and if i had given up on him then he wouldnt be mine right now. but we were best friends and i loved him, i had to be there for him and help him get over his like he helped me get over mine.
Maybe even give up on these dead end dreams just to be with you
But you don’t know that’s nothing like me
dead end dreams...perfect way to describe it. before him, i never planned on getting married, having kids or even graduating highschool. i wasnt going to make anything of myself and honestly was just going to f*ck myself over and die. i would have been so messed up if i had never met him...♥ thank you so much

[chorus]
Now I’m waking up
I’ve finally had enough of this wreck of a life
How I never thought I’d survive
Now I’m taking back all I gave up for that
Leave my pain behind
Wash these stains from my life
like i said before, i would be messed up if i had never met him. i wanted a fresh start and gave up all the bad stuff and i'm so soooo glad to have him. i thought i was just going to be a mess-up forever and die young, but i was wrong...i'm going to college and i'm going to get married and have a family. i'm happy...

Just when I thought all was lost
You came and made it all okay

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me
[2x]

I memorized all the words for you
If you only knew how much that’s just not like me

Monday, October 25, 2010

Ten Days post - Day 4

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Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself that most people don't know.
Day Three: Eight things you couldn't live without.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.Day Five: Six things you wish you could change or you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot to you
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons
Day Nine: Two words that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

1. why does everything have to bother me so much?
2. i wonder if i haunt you as much as you haunt me...
3. how did my mind end up like this?
4. i wish i was as "cool" as i used to be.
5. how could you have done all of that to me?
6. why are my dreams about you? i want them to be about him :(
7. i'm hungry... i wonder if there's money in the couch so i can go to kroger...

Poem - Viaton Aistillisuus

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i wrote this in finnish
sounds wierd in english to me..


etsiä minua, että viattomia kasvot

Rakastan sinua tuijottaa ylös minuun
hartiat yritys ja iho niin tiukka
tuntuu niin lämmin
ne isot kauniit silmät,

että virheetön kasvot.
iho on niin sileä.
olet niin kaunis ...

 
rakasta minua, baby
ja minä rakastan sinua

 
Rakastan sinua, kunnes kyyneleet lasku
Rakastan sinua kunnes kuolet

 
Saat minut tuntemaan elävältä
maailmassa niistä mennyt
Saat minut tuntemaan täydellinen
maailmassa puutteita

Sunday, October 24, 2010

photoshop update!

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i'm getting better you guys!
 newest thing i've figured out on photoshop is how to transfer tatoos :) you guys may recognize this picture as nick by the pool. i cropped it and added a background and put all of Ville Valo's tattoos on him. looks pretty good i think :)
i was experimenting with how to make fangs and it worked! i created a layer with my teeth and used liquify and changed my eyes and berry color and armsock color...then ultra softened my skin and wah-la! Vampire Kitty :)
 hahaha! okay, this one was a joke for a friend of mine...(wont name any names XD) he's a fan of this band called Deathstars that he got me into and said he would LyKe ToTaLlY gO gAy 4 eRic BaCkmAn <3333 so i made this for him XD funny part is, he's straight! so this was a joke. but i actually kinda like the wallpaper XD
this is a banner i made for my friend Bella aka Hazuki Hotaru. this is for her new story, she has a few blogs so idk which one to link you to XD but this is for her new story called "Forget"
 made this for my ti ti mayra :) thought it was cute and tropical ^_^
hahaha XD sara is awesome lol made this for her

Ten Days post - Day 3

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Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself that most people don't know.
Day Three: Eight things you couldn't live without.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you could change or you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot to you
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons
Day Nine: Two words that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

1. Nicko
2. My Laptop
3. a phone
4. Foreign Music
5. Souper Meal ramen bowls
6. Dr. Pepper, Root Beer, Cream Soda
7. ...all food
8. Love