Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Songs Left Unexplained #10: Invincible

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this song means alot to me. alot of people underestimate this band but they have some real emotion in thier songs and i love them soo much <3
I memorized all the words for you
But if you only knew how much that’s just not like me
I wait up late every night just to hear your voice
But you don’t know that’s nothing like me

You know I wonder have you already figured out
All these things that I try to hide
All this time I’ve been hoping you don’t find out how
All these thing that I hide on the inside

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me

I want to make sure everything is perfect for you
If you only knew that that’s not like me to follow through
Maybe even give up on these dead end dreams just to be with you
But you don’t know that’s nothing like me

[chorus]
Now I’m waking up
I’ve finally had enough of this wreck of a life
How I never thought I’d survive
Now I’m taking back all I gave up for that
Leave my pain behind
Wash these stains from my life

Just when I thought all was lost
You came and made it all okay

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me
[2x]
I memorized all the words for you
If you only knew how much that’s just not like me


now for my meaning...


I memorized all the words for you
But if you only knew how much that’s just not like me
i dont know if i ever told him this, but i memorized 2 songs by Bring Me The Horizon, simply because it was his favorite band. this was when i first met him, and he knew i wasnt into screamo, its just not like me.
I wait up late every night just to hear your voice
But you don’t know that’s nothing like me
these 2 lines make me remember when i went to new york and he called me by accident and said that we didnt have a phone call relationship, but then he ended up calling me back and we've talked almost every day since. it wasnt like him.
You know I wonder have you already figured out
All these things that I try to hide
i wondered if he had figured out, just how much i really loved him even that early.
All this time I’ve been hoping you don’t find out how
All these thing that I hide on the inside
at the same time i didnt want him to find out how much i loved him because i didnt want him to freak out. and other problems and depression i didnt want him to know about for the fear that he would let me go..

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
honestly, i didnt have alot of relationship experience...or at least not alot of good ones. nicko treats me better than anyone, which made me happy but at the same time i didnt know how to take it because it never really happened before. and i thought i knew what love was before, but when i fell in love with nick...this was real love, i felt like i had never loved anyone else before. i have "loved" people, but this is my first time being IN love with someone.
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me
he made me into a softy lol honestly, i was one of those girls who was always sweet, but was never as sweet as she could have been and always play fought with her boyfriends and beat them up...lol XD i was invincible, i could do whatever i wanted, but now i want to do what he wants...i had so much respect for him that punching was now irrellevant and all i wanted was hugs.

I want to make sure everything is perfect for you
If you only knew that that’s not like me to follow through
i wanted to be perfect for him, and usually i would give up on people but not him. i didnt feel like i was perfect because he did have an ex that he was serious with, and if i had given up on him then he wouldnt be mine right now. but we were best friends and i loved him, i had to be there for him and help him get over his like he helped me get over mine.
Maybe even give up on these dead end dreams just to be with you
But you don’t know that’s nothing like me
dead end dreams...perfect way to describe it. before him, i never planned on getting married, having kids or even graduating highschool. i wasnt going to make anything of myself and honestly was just going to f*ck myself over and die. i would have been so messed up if i had never met him...♥ thank you so much

[chorus]
Now I’m waking up
I’ve finally had enough of this wreck of a life
How I never thought I’d survive
Now I’m taking back all I gave up for that
Leave my pain behind
Wash these stains from my life
like i said before, i would be messed up if i had never met him. i wanted a fresh start and gave up all the bad stuff and i'm so soooo glad to have him. i thought i was just going to be a mess-up forever and die young, but i was wrong...i'm going to college and i'm going to get married and have a family. i'm happy...

Just when I thought all was lost
You came and made it all okay

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me
[2x]

I memorized all the words for you
If you only knew how much that’s just not like me