Wednesday, April 10, 2013

i dont know.

 it really sucks when no one gives a real fuck about you. i've been so borderline these past few weeks and not a single person actually cares... i always deal with other people's problems but no one ever gives a damn about mine. i almost never want to talk about what i'm going through, but when i do, nobody listens. they either talk over me, give one or two word responses, or just revert back to themselves and how their problems mean so much more than mine. whether its good or bad feelings, no one gives a single, misuscule shit. and it sucks. i'm alone all the time, and its depressing. i dont hang out with or talk to guys like other girls do, so i cant hang out with girls because they're always with guys. nick is all i have, and he gets mad at me for wanting to hang out with him all the time. i just wish someone really cared. enough to just hang out with me/me & other girls and have fun. i cant expect other people to adapt to my situation and i dont. and i dont ask anyone to. i'm not even close enough to anyone to ask them to do something with me. i'm not close to anyone. they say they're close to me, but i dont feel close to them i'm not comfortable asking anyone to hang out with me. it sucks seeing all the tagged photos on facebook of all my freinds new and old hanging out with eachother, and i have to sit there and see it and be okay with it, while i sit in my room alone. if i dissappeared, it most likely wouldnt matter to anybody. nothing in life would change for really anyone. and that thought in itself is depressing. but what does it matter? it doesnt... i just might as well not care about anything. so i guess i just wont..

Tuesday, April 9, 2013


went to a car meet with Nick today and he had his DSLR so he took some pretty bad-ass photos of me :D
i feel awesome in these~

Sunday, April 7, 2013

freestyle dance/edits (radioactive by imagine dragons)

 so, this is how i dance...most people dont even know i dance now or that i ever have, but its a passion of mine. i made this video 2 days ago and put it on facebook and got some great feedback from my dancer and non-dancer why not commit social suicide and put it on youtube lol 
i'm not looking for critiques, so please dont. if you like it, say it, if you don't...well i'm not a proffessional and dont plan to be but i also get discouraged easily, and this is something im not necessarily all that confident in so anything mean you say WILL hurt my feelings haha
the original caption from the facebook post is below this, explains my dance history and what-not...enjoy it if you can