thank you rabbito :)

Painting - Blue Backdrop [#600POST]

this is the painting i did for my extra credit in Art

i did the whole thing in 2 hours and my teacher was extremely impressed

and i am also happy to say...

i'm showing it as my 600th blog post as well!

thank you to all of my readers and friends, both new and old

i love you all and your blogs :)

i have never met most of you but you all make me feel like im special and i hope you all feel the same way

thank you so much everybody :)

and i passed my art class! ♥

Songs Left Unexplained #9: Bury Me Deep Inside Your Heart

another song off of HIM's Razorblade Romance album

it reminds me of a time that i was sad..

let me wake up in your arms, you say it's not alright
let me be so dead and gone, so far away from life
close my eyes, hold me tight
and bury me deep inside your heart
all I ever wanted was you my love
you're all I ever wanted
you, my love
let me never see the sun, never see you smile
let us be so dead and so gone
so far away from life
just close my eyes, hold me tight
and bury me deep inside your heart

now for my meaning..

let me wake up in your arms, you say it's not alright
we had this great day, and everything felt right..then all of a sudden he says "i know we wont be together forever but i want to be with you as long as i can" which made me feel so sad..i was sad that it didnt sound like he wanted to try to be with me forever like he said and it flashed back to what happened to me before and it made me so sad..
let me be so dead and gone, so far away from life
for a second i felt like "why am i here?" that line above is how i felt before i knew him after my last break up and then when he said that i felt that way again...i know that what he said wasnt even a mean thing, he didnt say it mean, it was just what he felt was the truth so he told me. i appreciated that, but all i wanted was love that would last forever, nothing short and nothing meaningless
close my eyes, hold me tight
and bury me deep inside your heart
all I ever wanted was you my love
you're all I ever wanted
you, my love
he's all i've ever wanted in a person and i thought he was perfect and i never want him to leave. i know he said "as long a we can" but it still made me sad...like, how long is that? it's not meant to end..this is something too special. i just want him to hold on to me and never let me go
let me never see the sun, never see you smile
let us be so dead and so gone
so far away from life
those 3 lines may sound negative, but in my mind i see it as us setting ourselves apart from everyone else and going on our own adventure, far away from our pasts and on with our future together. the phrase "let us be so dead and so gone" is interpreted to me as this: dead meaning forever, because you cant come back to life after death. and gone as in so high on love that you dont want it any other way. so "let us be forever in love"
just close my eyes, hold me tight
and bury me deep inside your heart
always love me and never forget me or let me go ♥

Photography - Summer Wine

animal line adoptable!

i havent posted pixels in a long time >.<

im sorry everyone!

here is a small adoptable

a kitty, bunny, puppy, little bird and a bear

i'll give it as a gift to anyone who wants it just comment :)

i just realized how much i miss pixelling!! T-T

Tetris and a Tube

my last art project i did for line design in art class

im not sure why tetris is the first thing to pop into my head..

sorry the picture is crooked >.<

i colored this with watercolors and colored pencil

Photography - Enchanted Edit

looks pretty, right?

its really a tube with muddy water running from it at my school

 its just edited nicely XD 

Songs Left Unexplained #8: Death Is In Love With Us

this song is a huge jam for me, my second favorite of the more punk-heavy oldschool songs by HIM, second to Sigillum Diaboli which is my favorite to jam to.

This song is again off of Razorblade Romance, it's beginning to become my favorite album

see, i warned you all about my sentimental connection to this band :P

here's the Lyrics:

I know it hurts too much
I know that you're scared
I know you're running out of trust
Wishing you were dead
In your misery
You're not alone
So come share your tears with me
And witness it all go wrong

I know it and I feel it
Just as well as you do, Honey
It's not our fault if death's in love with us oh oh
It's not our fault if the reaper holds our hearts

41+66.6 = our loss
We're breathing only to fade away
We're running just to get caught

What love's lies blessed
What love's light cursed
Just fear for the best
And hope for our worst

I know it and I feel it
Just as well as you do, Honey
It's not our fault if death's in love with us oh oh
It's not our fault if the reaper holds our hearts

Death's in love with us oh oh
The Reaper holds our hearts oh oh
Death's in love with us oh oh
And the Reaper holds our hearts oh oh

I know it and I feel it
Just as well as you do, Honey
It's not our fault if death's in love with us oh oh
It's not our fault if the reaper holds our hearts

now for my meaning part...

I know it hurts too much
I know that you're scared
I know you're running out of trust
Wishing you were dead
i was honestly scared to be with him because i didnt want to get hurt again :( it did feel like i was running out of trust because everyone i trusted would turn thier backs on me and do something bad to me and i didnt like it :( he got through to me and i eventually opened up..
In your misery
You're not alone
So come share your tears with me
And witness it all go wrong
basically saying...he knew my heart was broken, but so was his and we had to get through it together
I know it and I feel it
Just as well as you do, Honey
It's not our fault if death's in love with us oh oh
It's not our fault if the reaper holds our hearts
we basically were feeling alot the same and had alot of pain in our past relationships. "death's in love with us" in the sense that pain chased us when it came to love...the good part, is that all that pain chased us until we ran into eachother and now its gone ♥

41+66.6 = our loss
We're breathing only to fade away
We're running just to get caught

What love's lies blessed
there were lots of lies in his past relationship and i was lied to alot in my past ones too
What love's light cursed
when we got together i didnt know that i was ultimately ruining something that had been ongoing for almost half of a decade..and i am still sorry to her for that even though it wasnt all my fault and she would never accept my apology even if i tried to say sorry. love's light shown on me and he noticed and never forgot my face, so he had to find me and he did, but it was like a curse that i ended his relationship with his ex-girlfriend
Just fear for the best
And hope for our worst
he was afraid that i was going to end up like her. he said one time that when things get good he starts messing up and he just knew that we would never make it together, but we have..and he stopped messing up and being mean to me, even though it wasnt often anyway- he's almost never mean to me now and im glad he did that for me :)

I know it and I feel it
Just as well as you do, Honey
It's not our fault if death's in love with us oh oh
It's not our fault if the reaper holds our hearts

Death's in love with us oh oh
The Reaper holds our hearts oh oh
Death's in love with us oh oh
And the Reaper holds our hearts oh oh

I know it and I feel it
Just as well as you do, Honey
It's not our fault if death's in love with us oh oh
It's not our fault if the reaper holds our hearts
death is no longer in love with us, we have eachother to keep us safe from the reaper and now we're in God's hands again. all prayers have been answered...thank you so much ~ ♥

Photography - Flowers From The Backyard,

some little flowers from my grandma's back yard :)

Photography - Hunter :)

this is my adorable cousin and God-Daughter, Hunter :)

tonight was the last time i saw her and her parents, my cousins Nickie and Justin

before they leave to move to Turkey for 2 years

hopefully i will see them at Christmas time :)

peaking through the window of my very old barbie dreamhouse XD