Poem - Nocturna

the sound of chimes in the breeze,
at the time when all are at ease, asleep
the day is done, for all but one
in the night,
where she lies 
awake
in the still, in the cold,
in the mind, on her own
and the one
where she longs,
those arms, where they not follow
to whome they should cradle to doze
in them solely lies control
but can she help it
because the shoulder she deems necessary does all but exist,
leaving her only to taste the sorrow in her own tears
the flavor, it only pains her
in the night, the only time she exists
but can she help it

Poem - Nightmare #4

when your soul is stained with gasoline
floating from your body, in between
the world you know, and the world out there
and you can't believe a word you hear

it all came down to the catacombs
and the feelings hid inside
the trust you had and the gasoline
your soul ablaze in fire
it all came down to the catacombs
and the body hid inside
i shouldn't have jumped in the river
and i should have never took the chance

salt inside a wound torn in
i knew i should have never let you in
the door are closed now, don't dare knock
and don't ask, you know what the reasons are

it all came down to the catacombs
and the feelings hid inside
my head is spinning, eyes are shot
and i don't have the strength to get out
it all came down to the catacombs
and the body hid inside
i shouldn't have thought i matter
and i should have never tried to dance

no one tries and no one cares,
no matter what you do or how you feel
because it all comes down to pain
and you can't help it if you're driven' insane


it all came down to the catacombs
and the feelings hid inside
the trust you had and the gasoline
your soul ablaze in fire
it all came down to the catacombs
and the body hid inside
i shouldn't have jumped in the river
and i should have never took the chance

Poem - How Long

how do you know, and how can you trust
when one things a don't and the other's a must
to sacrifice so much, for someone who just
could care less for you than the dust
in the air, on the wall, on the floor,

to try the best you can in every possible way
not to believe, but just how can you say
you don't care, just to my own dismay
just in the back of my mind, its not going to be okay
not here, not there, not ever

f   o   r   e   v   e   r   ?

but does it hurt you inside;
does it pain you,
does it burn?
what do you want me to do;
to pain you,
or a turn?
or does it matter,
or does it not,
or is it because you think i'm selfish
for feeling this way,
but you know my reason,
because it's you.
because it's a chain reaction
because you knew it would happen

but you didn't do anything,
or so you say.
because you want me to forget,
because you know that i wont,
because you know me so well..

and you never take the blame,
when you know you were wrong,
when you know that i don't do these things to you
but you do it to me and you wont stop
how long will this go

f   o   r   e   v   e   r   ?