Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Songs Left Unexplained #1: "I'm Stupid"

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i decided to start what i called "Songs Left Unexplained"
these are songs that i've had as themes or favorite songs and what they mean to me
in these coming posts i will be explaining them...

This song is called "I'm Stupid" by Him & Her. I had known it for a while but all of a sudden it had a meaning. i had this song as a theme on a webpage of mine a few days before my ex-boyfriend had dumped me. reading the lyrics may help you figure it out:

Oh I'm Stupid
Your smarter
I'm stupid
Thinking theres a way
That this could turn out right


Oh I'm dreaming
You woke up
An I should have known from the start
That you were never mine


Coz if I could make you love me
Your out of reasons to stay
Make it easy on yourself
An don't worry bout me
Don't make me feel something you don't


Oh I'm crying
But don't pity
I'm dying but just walk away
I'm gunna be alright


Coz I was dreaming you woke up
An I'm gunna miss you but I
I'm gunna be alright


Coz if I could make you love me
Your out of reasons to stay
Make it easy on yourself
And don't worry about me


If I could make you love me
Your not the one here to blame
And I will make it on my own
And don't worry bout me
Don't worry bout me
Don't worry bout me


Oh I'm stupid
Your smarter
I'm stupid thinking theres a way
This could turn out right


Coz if I could make you love me
Your out of reasons to stay
Make it easy on yourself
And don't worry bout me


If I could make you love me
Your not the one here to blame
I will make it on my own
And don't worry bout me
Don't worry bout me
Don't worry bout me


Coz if I could make you love me
Your out of reasons to stay
Make it easy on yourself
And don't worry bout me
Don't worry bout me

this time i will post the lyrics with my input...
Oh I'm Stupid
Your smarter
I'm stupid
Thinking theres a way
That this could turn out right
i felt stupid because he said how much he loved me and then just stopped talking to me and left me. when i had asked him out, it wasnt supposed to turn serious. i liked him and he was my best friend so i knew i would be happy and wanted to get my mind off of the previous guy who had completely shattered my heart. i asked him out for fun, i thought we would be good but then he said "i love you." at first i wasnt sure if i loved him back, i loved him but i wasnt in love with him, but then i fell for him.. he used the word "forever" and made me think he meant it, then hurt me 2 months later. within that whole two months, he had changed his habits, friends and the way he treated me. honestly, i almost left him. but he said i wouldn't lose him unless i left, but he left. i tried to hold on but i couldnt so he was gone and i couldnt do anything about it.

Oh I'm dreaming
You woke up
An I should have known from the start
That you were never mine
"woke up" meant i dreamt for a little that he had come back to his senses and begged for me back, he didnt though. i had found out he was talking to my best friend at the time and they did end up dating. i figured out that he had liked her the entire time he was with me. hense the fraze "he was never mine"

Coz if I could make you love me
Your out of reasons to stay

Make it easy on yourself
An don't worry bout me
Don't make me feel something you don't
"coz if i could make you love me, you're out of reasons to stay" can come off kind of bad...what i mean is that, guys would always say they loved me first as in they would fall before me. i started to feel like i needed to fall in love with someone and i needed to be the one to say "i love you" first. (by the way, i told nick i loved him first.) i had already figured out only days later that i was falling in love with someone else (nick) and i had began to stop caring about my ex's feelings. "dont make me feel something you dont" he told me about a month and a half later that he didnt know what love was. which means he had been lying to me the whole time. and then i felt like sh*t because i realized i had been in a situation where i loved someone that didn't love me back.

Oh I'm crying
But don't pity
I'm dying but just walk away
I'm gunna be alright
i wanted to die when he left. the day he left me, i was walking down the street and he drove past me. didn't stop or anything. just a slight pause and stare out the window then a sharp turn around the corner. he said if i needed a shoulder to cry on he would be there for me. he wasnt. he left me there to die. "im gunna be alright" this feeling was after i hung out with nick for the first time.
Oh I'm stupid
Your smarter
I'm stupid thinking theres a way
This could turn out right

Coz if I could make you love me
Your out of reasons to stay
Make it easy on yourself
And don't worry bout me

If I could make you love me
Your not the one here to blame


Coz I was dreaming you woke up
An I'm gunna miss you but I
I'm gunna be alright
i had a dream that he begged for me back again, but in the dream i rejected him this time. "i'm gunna be alright"

Coz if I could make you love me
Your out of reasons to stay
Make it easy on yourself
And don't worry about me

If I could make you love me
Your not the one here to blame
And I will make it on my own
And don't worry bout me
Don't worry bout me
Don't worry bout me
its my fault for saying it back. i should have left when i had planned to. a month and a half into our relationship i was going to break it off to keep it from getting serious. before i could, he said he loved me and i couldnt do it. i felt bad, then i didnt know how i felt. i let it go too far

I will make it on my own
And don't worry bout me
Don't worry bout me
Don't worry bout me

Coz if I could make you love me
Your out of reasons to stay
Make it easy on yourself
And don't worry bout me
Don't worry bout me
i didnt care for him anymore. i was happier and am happier now that i have my true love. i made it on my own and i said it first. "don't worry bout me"