Painting - Skeleton Key Marine

my entry for an art contest for the college of Mt. St. Joe!

wish me luck haha

Painting - Bilingual Scarcity

Pastels - Nightmares

Pastels - Life and Death

can you do me a favor?

like my blog on facebook!
facebook.com/aeridescent!

if you have a like page, just send it to me and i'll like you back! thanks <3
and, i finally pixelled my self :) one of my favorite outfits :D
well, back to class~~

i now have a stand-alone page for my pixels ^^

you can comment it for requests and it's got examples of what i can do, requests i've done, and a list of requests that are in progress :) check it out!←click

pixel requests ~ done ^^

  

the first one is for Lina Kim of Sparkle Apple

the second one is for my friend Salayna a.k.a Melonie Mayhem!

anyone want any pixels, please tell me!

I might make a standalone page for my pixels..

let me know if you think i should ^_^

playing with pixels~~

i drew these on MS Paint while bored at school...

they're just some made up characters

then i made them lunch boxes xD

they go in order to the character...

cookies - onigiri - corn - toast/butter - berries

rice - yogurt parfait - sushi/wassabi/ginger - candy - carrots - grapes

it's me, thats why she's so hungry xDD

just candy..

rice - donuts - sushi - salad - cake - chicken nuggets - chop sticks

just an update on my progress in making pixels :)

i dont use bases cuz i dont like them xD

so i draw all my pixels from scratch and always have :)

still taking requests for them ^^

Painting / Collage - Blind Contour Self Portrait

done in water color and acrylic paint,collaged with newspaper

Drawing - Abstract Self Portrait

done in colored pencil.

Lyrics - It's Up To You

Staring up at the sky
remembering every night i spent with you
staring up at the skye
remembering every time away from you

do you want (do you want)
to say
do you want (do you want)
me to stay

its up to you.


Staring up at the sky
remembering all the shymes i wrote for you
staring up at the sky
remembering every time i cried over you
when i just wanted you to listen
but you never had the time
you told me to wait and i waited
for you to prove i'm not wasting my time

do you want (do you want)
me to stay
r'do you want
me to go a-way?

Its up to you
to make the change
i'v been wondering
all this way
you say you love me
or say i'm a whore
and i cant take it anymore!

so it's up to you.

Staring up at the sky
remembering every night i spent with you
staring up at the sky
remembering every time away from you

you should want (should want)
me here
you shouldnt ever want me
to fear
and you know (you know)
i'm the one
and you know how this all begun...

it's up to you
to make the change
i've been wandering
all this way
you say you love me
or leave me alone
even thought you know my heart
is your home

but it's up to you...

link exchange?

if you want we can link eachother :)
comment my post with your link and what you want me to list you as
and i'll put it in my link exchance page ^_^
some people will be automatically in there :)

please comment ^_^ and thanks so much for following!! xoxo <3

What's your ninja name!?

mine is kakushiki
my real name (asberry) is kaarizushishifu -_- lol
whats yours? i wanna know :D just some random fun thing i found xDt

24 followers :D

thank you all so much ^_^

19 followers :)

that was fast ^_^
i got migrators from my old blog and some new people as well ^_^
hello to you all :D and thanks for following!! ^_^ <333
i hope i get more soon ^_^ it's really motivating :D

Lyrics - If I Ever Left

written during the maryrose drama era of this summer...stuff happened...this is how i felt.


If i ever left, what would you say?
would you regret always pushing me away
would you stop girls from coming after you
maybe sometimes do what i want you to

maybe this wouldnt be oh-so smart of me
just be who you wanna be, but dont run from me
no matter what i will always love you,
and i hope that you feel the same...

if i really left, what would you say?
would you regret ditching me all of those days
would you regret not letting me talk to you
and telling me shut up like you always do

maybe this wouldnt be oh-so smart of me

just be who you wanna be, but dont run from me

no matter what i will always love you,

and i hope that you feel the same...

someday when we get married
maybe one day when you're not so scary
we can be happy just me and you in our house with all our wonderful things~

you know i'll never leave but what would you say?
would you promise to love me till the end of our days
n' take all the adoration i have for you
put together the words "i was made for you"

maybe this wouldnt be oh-so smart of me

just be who you wanna be, but dont run from me

no matter what i will always love you,

and i hope that you feel the same...

and you feel the same.

Poem - I Hate You

i hate the way you're always here.
i hate the way you'll never leave.
i hate the way you're kept around.
i hate the way people fight for you.
i hate the way you're just like me.
i hate the way you blame it on me.
i hate the way you dont care.
i hate the way you're probably happy.
i hate the way you can do what i cant.
i hate your perfect skin.
i hate your perfectness.
i hate your anchored pain,
i hate your anchored you.

Recipe - Smoothie Ice!

today i am posting my first recipe :D

this is something i call "smoothie ice" :)

this is what the finished product looks like.

what you need:

17 right season's frozen strawberries
4 tbsp of applesauce
1 whole banana
1 tbsp of vanilla icing

a food processor / blender

i only used vanilla icing because we had no sugar, you can use sugar if you want ^_^
just combine all of those ingredients into a food processor (as i did) or a blender until its really smooth, unless you like the chunks, that is :)
it tastes good as a smoothie and as ice! you can freeze it then shave the ice with a spoon :)
if its not sweet enough for you, try a little more sugar?
this would also taste nice blended with whipping cream :)
maybe try sweetening with sugar or honey instead of icing?
if you try it out, please let me know how it goes :D

i have two followers x3

konayachi and joee i &hearts; you ^_^
my only 2 followers xD


i will make you both something for being the first 2 ^_^
&hearts;
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i now have 5 ^_^ i'll make a doodle for each one of you :D

new url! (and Google+ !)

please follow my new blog: aeridescent.blogspot.com !
it's still under construction, so beware xD nothing made forsure just yet,
it will have all of my posts from this blog and i will still leave this blog up so my links and pictures don't break.
WHY AM I LEAVING THIS URL:

1. i don't go by berry anymore.
2. the other blog is the account is attatched to my youtube account.
3. i'm actually running out of data space on picasa web albums :| lol
4. i think it would be a nice change :)

please re-follow! if you  follow me, i'll follow you back :)
and of course, i'll follow my friends by default <3


GOOGLE+ !
my aunt mayra emailed me about this! it looks pretty cool :) google's trying to bring the internet to life pretty much :) you make your profile and add your friends and family, and you can "hang out" with them, as in get everyone in a group and talk through webcam all at once! it looks fun ^_^ i cant wait to get all my family on there xD maybe tonight i can talk to my aunt ^_^ her hubby's in afganistan right now so she needs her friends and family ^_^
if you make an account you can look for me :D
email: azbaeri@aol.com

bye <3

RABBITO

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH!
i hope you're doing well in all of your classes and making tons of new friends ^_^ i hope your birthday is blessed <3 !

the poem he wrote me ♥

i never got to post this, he said i could a long time ago.. so here it is :) the famous poem that nicko wrote me nearly 2 years ago before we were dating.
it's really special and dear to me <3 so here it is, his "emotions on paper"


~Silent Love~
i first saw you, so innocent and so happy.
Having a chance? never crossed my mind.
I saw true love in your eyes.
But saying these words now only true in that line.
I see hurt covered by smiles.
and laugh covered lies.
Like waiting for nights tide you sit and think, you're bringing your own pain like you're waiting to sink.
I try to hold you up, but i think i'm falling to...hard but not in the same way as you.
I think about you every second. your all i want.
I want to feel your soft skin, you're sweet to my touch.
My feelings for you so strong, yet i'm simply another friend.
If you really could feel how i do toward you, its so hard to explain.
I will say nothing in fear to ruin,
friendship.
I wish i could have your heart but it's already been taken.
Still no chance, i'm just another boy.
saying it'll be ok. you've heard it before.
Yes, I know no matter what. I say you've heard it all its all the same.
My love for you no one can break.
remember my words.
I wouldnt be a mistake...

my favorite piece of writing and always will be <3

more sigs :D

i might end up doing an entire page on these o_o

they are seriously addicting to make >.<

i like that theres a limit because of the size and experimenting how much i can do with it, then coming up with themes and muses...it makes me feel so creative :D i guess graphic design as a hobby only wouldnt be so bad...maybe i could have like an online job making walpapers or something lol who knows!!

maybe not a career...but i want it to be something :)

collectoon siggy's :)

i put up a request on collectoons to do signatures for people that i made of photoshop...looks like i'm a hit :)

these are the ones i did so far. the very last one is obviously mine :P

3 more requests since yesterday too @_@ i will have a busy afternoon!

i think im good at this :D

another reason i'm depressed that i cant go to art school -.-

Poetry - Remember That I Miss You

i'm not sure how long i can control myself,
the patience, the waiting; it's all building up
hiding in me, and soon i'll burst into tears
and cry until i cant take it, but i still take it
because you're worth waiting for,
because we're going to make it

remember how you feel,
how do you feel if you have to wait,
how you'd feel if i made you wait,
why would you do it to me?
when i've waited,
when i've always been here,
when i've been waiting forever
                                   for you,
then you make me wait more,
when you should really be giving me favour
after all that we have been through together,
and how nice i've been, even when you were hurtful,
and how we were always there for eachother,
when you never ignored me for another,

i want those days again

when you were never mean, and always awake,
go out of your way just to see my face
when you were so infatuated with me, that just talking and sitting on my doorstep was enough for you
when you would bring me whatever i want, even if i'm not blue
baby, where are you?
come back, i miss you

and i hope you feel the same,
that if i did this to you, that you would wait for me too,
i have to know, baby...would you? like i do?
because, honey, don't you know,
the way you act makes me wonder so,
sometimes i just have to know,
do you miss me back?
because i can't tell by the way that you act
baby, please come back. . .

because i still don't yet understand,
because you said that i'm your # 1,
then why don't you come with me?
then why don't we go have some fun?

i don't think you know how it feels,
to feel like you don't have much worth,
because someone says that you mean the world,
but you choose everyone over her, and it hurts,
and it stings,
and it burns,
and i yearn -only for you, i tried to let you see
that the only person i want in your eyes, is me
just like you are to me, remember, your kitty?

i love you, you say you love me to
it doesnt matter if you don't feel like it,
why don't you do what i do?
just take it, just for a day,
i promise every time will be okay
and no matter how you feel when you come,
you'll leave with a smile on your face.

Wisconsin - Part 4 - Shakira :)

the sweetest dog i have ever met :)

maybe even sweeter than bella and lexi (nicks dog and his sister's dog)

she's so cute :) i gave her her own post xD this is shakira :D

idk why ñoño name her that xD

Wisconsin - Part 2 - Wedding and Reception!

la la la lots of pictures again!!! :PPPP that is my look for the wedding :) hair half back on the side in a clip, got new crystal guages too :) the only edit is the bg and a little exposure, so you can tell, i looked good :) i got that dress for less than twenty dollars at a thrift store! great find right?? and teal is definately my color!! nick suggested :) i love this color, i even had my hair that color before! refer to posts from last summer, you will see :) my mom chose the bolero, i chose the dress and shoes, of course also did my own make up :P i never let anyone touch my face xD thank you nick for that makeup pallet you bought me for christmas!!! i would never have so many color combinations without it :P

the shoes were also thrifted, together the dress and shoes were under 30$, crazy huh? and the shoes are brand name! i got lucky lol

they had musicians at thier wedding :) they were very good :D

the wedding was nice and small, only a few rows and it was an outside wedding at the beautiful botanical gardens :) it was so pretty!! here comes the wedding cast :) i took all the pics in this post btw,

 ñoño and his abuela (saez)

 ñoño and our abuela (Quiñones)

 manuel, ñoño and xaviers parents, victor and madelin - my aunt and uncle

 they are so cute xD she is beautiful :) inside and out!!!

 ñoño and one of the brides maids, i forgot her name @_@ she is a cousin on tio victors side

 i think she has such a cute face xD

 the best man and the last bridesmaid. she's not related, but she looks related :) she fits right in xD

 the ring bearer and one of the flower girls :) more younger cousins ^_^ they are so cute!!!
now the bride herself! her dress was so stunning <3 looks a little like the one i designed for myself :) that is her and her father

 saying thier vows <3

the kis! adorable <33 they are really great together :) you can really tell how much they love eachother. he doesnt leave her side without kissing her and telling her he loves her. you can see the chemistry between them without them even having to exchange words :) i's so beautiful :)

i got my picture taken after the wedding at the reception with the flowers up front :) my dress is a stunner in the sunlight! i hope i get the chance to wear it again....NICK PLEASE TAKE ME TO THE HOMECOMING DANCE NEXT YEAR!!!

 here is me, mami, and all of my aunts. the one in the very back is johanna :) but you call her johanna iris ;D she sells avon so if you need cosmetics hit me up and i'll set you up with her :)

me, tehya and ti ti mayra :) she is the closest to me out of the aunts. we're really open with eachother and she brings out my girly side :P she is very fun and young-spirited ^_^ i love her lots!!

can you guys believe i can walk in those platform heels?! i'm good :) he he. i have muscular calfs >.< i dont like it...i would be fine with it if i had thicker ankles. having on heels makes my legs look better though ^_^ i think...

here are some of the wedding favours :) ti ti madelin made them all

 candy almonds. it says lauren & victor because victor is manuels real name, family only calls him manuel so he doesnt get confused with his father :) manuel is his middle name :)

bubbles :D those were fun xD still havent use them all up lol

 here is my favorite, the chocolate rose lollypop!

 made with white chocolate but colored purple ~~~

 tastes so smooth and amazing! my aunt madelin used to make candy as her personal business, she always has the best foods! i love her cooking :) she made these roses and some mini ones in a box...i ate all mine too quick for a a pic xD

i want another rose D:

we got some pretty awesome appetizers too :)

really good :D i forget what it is :D mmm!!

 bread & butter...my favorite xD

the wedding cake! beautiful cake :) it was pretty awesome too :D too much icing for me though xD

 here is the first part of the meal, raddish salad

 it had a nice vinegarette on it too :) made it really appealing ^_^
and this pretty meal of a chicken! my sister and mom got this~~

and i got this pasta :) yummmm

it was so good i wanted seconds xD 

that. right there. was manuel's. wedding.

and...it was pretty great :) i wish you could see thier true happiness, pictures arent enough to describe <3